Hello readers of my blog good day to you and I hope you had a
wonderful Christmas celebration with your loved ones. First of all, I want to
say sorry if I didn't update my blog a long time ago. I ran out of creative
juices, and a lot of mishaps and victories happened to me, but this time I am back
and running again. I will try to update my blog from time to time, and this
time I will make sure that my content is full of useful content and learning.
Twenty nineteen has been a roller coaster ride for me. Way too
many learning that I have learned in my life that I will take next year. Yes,
there are dark lessons that I have encountered this year, but since it will be
a new millennium, I will rise to become a stronger and better person. I will be
wise and prudent person no matter what the new millennia throws at me.
Since I am reviewing my year, I will start by stating that my
culinary era will come to an end since I have decided to change my path. New
challenge has bestowed to me and it is about time for me to take up the
challenge. I am currently back to school to be your future Social Service Worker.
This calling start when I have seen the injustices that surrounded, especially
in the industry that I had established myself. Five years in the industry made
me realize a lot of things like politics inside the kitchen (I know its
everywhere but kitchen world is different politics), not following the Employee
Safety Act (Although some kitchens that I work with follows this but most
nope), Some kitchens doesn’t follow the sanitation procedures and so on.
Besides this horrendous experience, I did work with unionized companies but
seemed to be the unions that I was under with are just functioning for job
security and protecting these people who are not working, workers who are bullying
other workers who are moving and doing the real work, and protecting some
workers who are maniac. I also forgot to mention some restaurants if they are
missing people the head chef will kill you little by little in the form of filling
those positions until you drop dead. These are just the nasty things that I
have seen as this industry deteriorates my mental and physical health.
Since this happenings started to get into my nerves like what
I have said beforehand, this triggers me to go back to school and change my
career. Before this going back to school happens, I have to stand up with my decision
to back to school to my mom. Ever since that I was a kid until I started my
college days she always pick what program (Course on the other side of the
world), but this time since I got tired of what I am doing now I told
myself that it is about time to stand up for myself and choose what will make
me happy. Since I have seen already the darkness of the culinary world, and
there are a lot of oppressions in my surroundings, it’s about time to help those
who are in need and be an ally for them.
Moving on, I have also learned that sometimes you have to let
God work on your future, not you working towards your future. Also, sometimes you
have to be careful when you are using online dating. This year I got victimized
by a scammer who made me believe that he is part of US Air force and he made
some sorts of stories that his late father has money from Switzerland and he
needs a lump sum of money to clear that package out. But thank the good lord that
he used my former spiritual director to enlighten me that I have been scammed
already, and I have previously reported it to the police. Besides that, I have encountered
a maniac on online dating too were all he wants is to have sex with me. I said to
myself, “Like seriously, I have to stop this nonsense going to different
online dating sites and stick on the group that I have on facebook.” Aside from this, I also learned that there are
people that you have to cut off from your life and never trust them again with
your secrets because they cannot keep their promise that they will keep it. I
pray that they may realize that what they were doing is wrong and must have a
word of honour if someone trusted you with a secret.
Despite that there’s a lot of mishaps that I have experienced
this year, there were still blessings that came forward into my life. The first
blessing was I went for a cruise with my parents and saw the Bahamas and experience
a great time in journey and meet different people across the globe. Another
blessing is despite that I my two spiritual directors assigned in different place,
I again a new one who can guide my spiritual and vocation journey. Also, I gain
new friends in school and online friends. Another blessings would have very
close friends who I can turn to when the world is going against me again. Furthermore,
I am also thankful that my parents are now supporting my schooling even though I
have to stand up against my mom. By the way, I forgot to mention before I start leaving my culinary world I became a summer head cook for a camp outside Toronto.
Many blessings came to my life that I cannot mention here.
What I can say now is that this year God made me realize that everything will
be beautiful in the upcoming year. Despite there’s a lot of misfortunes that
happened to me, I am clinging to his promise that he will give me abundance of
blessings as long as I stick to His hope. This year taught me a lot of things,
like being resilient in times of trouble. Always smile when the world is against
you. Pray for those people who hurt you and always look for a brighter future ahead
of you.
Another era has ended, and a new millennia will come forward
in a few days. I cannot say that I am ready to face the modern era but I am not
scared to rise above and conquer this next millennia. I will bring all the
learnings that I have this year and will use it to become a better, stronger,
and a fighter woman. I am still growing as an individual, but I will promise to
his new era that I will use this new beginning to explore more and go beyond my
comfort zone.
To end this entry, I want to reintroduce myself, and I am Alyssa
Palos. I am Cis- Hetero, Catholic, Racialized, Big women and I am your future
Social Service Worker. May you have a blessed new year and still Happy
Christmas to us Christian Catholics who are reading my blog.
Until here then…God bless us all!
