Mens Philosophia

Hey everyone! I know I took a long time to write again. Sorry, It's just that my mind was full of dullness and unruly thoughts and I don't know how to put it into words but this time instead of wasting my freaking time I have to push myself and do something worthwhile.

First thing first; I missed you guise. I am sorry if I am not updating this blog at all. There are certain things that I have do deal with myself as of this moment. I just got this guts to write again despite the fact that my grammar is not that good and concise. Nobody is perfect like what other people say. I am not perfect I still need to fix myself. There are a lot of things that I need to think of; I should say ponder on.

Honestly, I've been to a lot of struggles in life. Like I thought that I am a failure cause I quit my last kitchen work. I have been comparing myself to other people that they are way better than me that's why I am not growing in my chosen field; I loss my passion in cooking because of bad experiences. Not just only that I felt that people that surrounds me left me alone in this battle that I have been facing. As of this moment I am still fighting these demons that I have deep within me. I am still in battle of my pessimistic self and turning this into the lively person that I have used before. Honestly guise it's not easy but I know someone up there is helping me out to see the light again. I forgot to mention I have wasted a lot of tears during this struggle but don't worry I am done with crying. Time to fight once again.

As of this moment I am in the healing process and reclaiming my energy that I have before and seeking myself worth again. This maybe a shaky voyage but I will fight all the krakens and Moby dicks that lingers in my mind. It is soothing enough that someone affirms your self worth in times of darkness and being astray in faith.

For those people who are out there on the same boat with me; I know you can pull yourself out. Yes it will not be easy; but always remember that you are not alone is this world. Think about your family that you have. Think about your friends that you have accumulate all through out the years. Think about your potential within you. Re learn to love yourself you and as you re learn to love yourself you will find your special potential and use that to build your ladder (thank you Martina Stawski for that). Find something that will make yourself busy. Don't forget also keeping faith with God

Yes, sometimes we will experience that darkest pit of our lives but as you push and work with God nothing will be impossible with him. He will put right people in your life and right scenarios that you will see the real beauty of life. Sometimes you have to let go of something to be free. It may be hard but you have to. You have to fight for your life and learn to love the people that loves you.

Despite that I am on my healing and rejuvenating process I am hear to help out. I am not perfect but I am willing to listen. Remember you are not alone in this world.

Until here then