Hey, Everyone!
How's everybody doing so far? I know that it's only now that I updated my blog. This is the only chance that I have got so far and my mind right now is full of unwanted thoughts that I want to relay through this blog. I know that I have the commitment to update my blog every single time; be it seems to be that my mind wants to explode right now.
first and foremost I just want to greet you a yuletide Christmas. For sure some of you are enjoying this season with your loved ones or with your friends. As for me; I celebrated this event with my family. Honestly, I am very pleased that I celebrated this festive season with my family and attended a worship service to welcome Him.Honestly, right at this moment my heart and emotions are all mixed up. Yes! I am happy that I that it's His birthday but at the same time it is longing for someone. I know that I have to stop this nonsense but it seems to be it's lingering in my mind. For some reasons I just want to cry on this day of the festive season but I have to hold it back because I just want to enjoy this season of love, celebrating life and welcoming the king of kings. I do really hate this feeling of guilt and sorrow because it's Christmas. I know that I've done a lot of wrongdoings but I am sorry for that. Honestly, this is the worst feeling that I have as of this moment (Guilt feeling). I am so pissed with myself and questioning myself why I should doubt this someone that I care the most and who cares for me when I am down. Seriously I feel sh*t when I did it. I've should've doubt you at the first place because I know that you are a true friend that I lost because of this stupid thing that I listen to. To be honest ( and I know I am already going on public already), I miss you so much. I miss our conversation, our small messages, and so on. I know time heals but I am still hoping and praying that one day we will have a good conversation again. Honestly, I still read our old conversation on my phone and it made me smile every single time that I am down. Seriously I miss you so much and I want to see you again soon.
Sorry guise if this blog is kinda cheesy at all but my advice to you this Christmas is that always cherish the people who care for you. Never lose them because if you lose them you will find a hard time to replace them. The only thing that you cannot replace is your family, but the people who care for since the beginning it will be hard to be replaced. To this guy that I hurt a lot I am once again I am really really sorry...
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Have a Yuletide Christmas everyone!!!
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