Insomia

Okay I must admit this is my addiction right now and I should say my head is aching but who cares. I want to right and I want to do this entry. Blogging is where I can express my mind and where I can release all my stress in life; including pains (but not all of it I still need privacy in life) I should say. Anyways, why did I choose this title? I don’t know and I think I mess up my head again. I must say after several trial and errors in this passion I finally found my strength. I don’t know why I chose this style. I am so totally messed up I should say. Yes! I am writing but my body is dead tired from work. I don’t care my mind right now is restless.

I should say this mind of mine has full of thoughts that I do not know how to control it this time. I must admit that despite I am dead tired, focused, and happy; I should say I am just masking up on what’s inside of me. I am just a human. Human that can feel. Honest to God, he knows that my heart is still in shatter pieces. I still do not know what will be the next step. I do not know where to start but hey God is showing me the way. Honestly I am in love; in loved with our Lord God. Every single day pinapakilig nya ako (finally I already type a Filipino phrase in my blog.); but as that kilig moments and date nights with Him despite of my failures He is always reassuring me that my Man will come soon. What an amazing assurance of that eh?!

Sometimes in life you really don’t expect what will come. (Fine I must admit I am sleepy but still I don’t want to sleep yet I am still on a sweet land mode). You really have to wait and let everything fall into place like what other people said. Okay this is a continuation; still sleepy head. Oh well what you can do if you really did not sleep well. Anyways; in life you will really experience sleepless where you do not know what’s the cause of it or sometimes your mind is just way to much active or changing of your hormones as you grow old (Uhhggg... I hate that word but must admit I am getting there).

Honestly, I do not know how will I end this blog and I know this will be the shortest one because first thing this has to be written sleepless; second, my mind floats around and lastly I have mixed emotions right now. I should say, life is full of surprises; full of laughter, full of sadness, full of amazement and full of mystery. You really do not know what is really going on.

I should say, just sail with it. Life is like an ocean of eternity. There will be tidal waves calm waves or hurricane should I say. Just sail with it. Like what Enya’s song “Sail Away”. Mixed emotions, hang in there just cover it up with smile. Smile can change everything and brighten up people’s day.

Until here then